Sunday, 29 April 2007

It’s all about me

You know what,
It’s not about the shirt.
It’s not about how you’ve always wrong no matter what.

It’s about me…
It’s about me start losing a status at where I go to work.
I don’t know who I am right now.
What I really should do and what is my first priority.
I really don’t know
Because I can’t do it both
It is too hard for me to do so.
I’ve already had a rough time most of the days
Everybody’s keep forcing me to do better and better
It’s frustrating me.
Because I know, I’m not that good

Maybe you know how it feels.

I need a getaway.
Need some time off to refresh my mind
I miss my family, never met them lately
I feel guilty and I don’t wanna be left alone
Because I need their support.
Otherwise I will explode.

I know you have good intentions for me
And I cherish that
But critics aren’t always easy to take.
I need to figure it out for a moment.
And that’s why I can’t communicate with you.
Because I’m trying to communicate with myself first.

You see,
It’s not about the shirt
Or about how you’ve always done wrong no matter what.
It’s about me.
And that’s why I need you here,
To support me too.

Wednesday, 25 April 2007

Not good enough or not belong?

I know I need to struggle a little bit harder for this job.
And I know, none of these works made me proud.
But one thing for sure,
I know that I’m not happy.

Despite of the good ambiance and all,
I’m so ready to take off from this job.
an Account Executive, a Client Service, or whatever you name it.

This is not my dream job.
I thought I can survive this.
But then I started to think, will this effort be worth it.

There is a thin line between not good enough or not belong

I’m not willing to take that risk.