a Thought of a Dragon Slayer

Driven by Hollywood and fairytale books, I've always thought that prince charming is real. A specific handsome man with shining armor in his left hand and somewhat sword (or light saber) in his right hand, ready to rescue you from a silly ant or a rebellious dragon. But hell, I learn in times that I'm also not a princess. So I guess the theory just failed me there.

The one thing that connects me to the fairytale love, lies only in one keyword: everlasting.
Yep. In my case, love is an everlasting hard work.
You can't risk yourself waiting to be rescued and ended up crying to death because no one really showed up for you. You need to have your own shining armor and your deadly sword. Might even better if you have a black belt or something. And if you got them all, then you're settled to have your dreams come true.

For example:
If you happen to find a dragon in the forest, your prince won't immediately hide you behind a tree and fight the dragon with all of the blood he had left. Instead, he'll asked you to help him slay the dragon together and share the same horror he's having and yells at you every once in a while when you got panicked. And if one day a dragon hurts you, he would certainly blame you for not fighting too hard, or worse... blame you for even crossing path with a dragon.

But then again, this is the era of Mr. & Mrs. Smith. I can't complain. The definition of love is no longer measured by the saying of "You jump, I jump" on the Titanic movie. Now it's more like "it's okay if you wanna jump, but jump at your own risk and don't involve me in when things got messy, okay". And then you'll just have to weep hard convincing him to jump with you, or you can just simply eat your heart out and pretend as if nothing's ever happened.

You see, this is the women emancipation talking. Women fight hard on this case for centuries. And here we are now, wanting to be wooed and treated as if we are still that special creatures who deserve special privileges.

Well I guess, women will always be women eventually.
And I hope men don't forget that
Hhhh...

a Week is More than Enough

“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change;

at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready.

The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back.

A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”

~ Paulo Coelho

So They Say

Have you ever been to a situation when your left brain and your right brain doesn't seem to agree on each other, your head is heating up like boiling water? And the more you concentrate, the more you stressed out that you can eat whatever it is your eyes can see?

Well that's exactly how I feel right now.


Oh Well...

Sometimes I feel like
a needle in a haystack.

Small.
Different.
and
Lost.

Love me love them.

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You get all
But why can't you give more?
Like come knocking on their door
Trying to torture me more?

Big love they carry
Never complain and envy
Just trying to love you most dearly
Hoping to be loved equally

Make a good point
But please don't disappoint

Just love me, love them.

the sisterhood of deserted hearts

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Blood leads us here
Same genes but not exactly
Hugs and kisses, only seen on TV
Somewhat family, but why like this?

All kinds of weather
Do we stick together?
Or do we even bother?
Even the neighbors can do it better

The blood stays in body, not in soul
Why can’t we be whole?
All fall will stroll
Might be fun like rock n’ roll

But none above is in my control

Take Me Back to You

There's always something when I take a look at you
Like the way I smile when I see your morning sun
Or when your wind breezes to my hello

There you keep a place of friendship and laughter for me
a place to dream high under the big deep trees
where all the creativity nests and you set me free

Take me back to your deepest core
Take me back and I'll love you even more

away from the city madness

this is my neverland
the place where i can show the real me without ever feeling insecure.
The laughter, the greenery, the boundless energy i felt inside
oh it’s irreplaceable
i wish i could stay here forever
away from the city madness…
please take me to another dream like this,
but don’t bother to wake me up this time…